Chapter 3

Mom agreed to buy one size larger (36-C) and then it came to choice of colour. Mom told me to choose based on most of my clothes including my school uniform.

They were between light to medium dark colour so a variety of light and dark colours would be a good choice. Mom said the bra should have light padding to provide cover in front.

Looking at me the lady proposed that we should buy front opening ones because it would be much easier to wear. We quickly bought a few padded bra panty sets in different colours.

While we waited for the bill, the lady gave me one set and told me to go to the changing room and to wear it. Mom also told me to wear it and I went to the trial room and put it on and looked at myself in the mirror.

I felt very proud looking in the mirror in the new bra and my chest seemed much bigger. It was raised much more than before creating a very big cleavage. Nevertheless, I put my top back on and went to the counter.

The lady asked me if it was feeling loose or tight and I said I was feeling fine. We enquired about the sports bra and she said they didn’t have. She said she had my size and took down our home phone number and promised to get in a week from the big city.

We paid and proceeded home in an auto. While travelling in the auto I asked mom what did she mean when she told that lady about “padding to cover in front” when her own bras do not have it?

Mom told me to wait till we reached home as we should not talk such things in a public place. She was pointing at the auto driver who was openly ogling at me thru his rear view mirror.

We reached home soon and as soon as we entered the house I asked her again. She told me that women have nipples and in my case they were also quite big.

So in a normal bra without pads they would show thru the clothes which is not good. Then she pointed to my kurta and said see now they are not visible.

Well today was too much learning for me in one day and my head was buzzing with a lot more questions about my body than before. I asked mother what did the doctor mean by “hymen”?

Mom seemed irritated by my questions and told me that in due course I would find out and to stop bothering her now. She said that from now I should wear the bras at all times except while sleeping and I don’t need a slip anymore.

I looked at the time and it was my playtime, so I headed out after changing into my house clothes wearing the new bra and panty without the slip. I met Hardeep playing with the other boys.

When I joined, all boys stared at me for a moment before resuming their game of lagori (An Indian game of stacking stones and aiming at it with a ball) which they were playing.

I didn’t know why they stared like that and I didn’t care since I was more interested in the game. After we were done playing around 7pm me and Hardeep were sitting alone chatting near his house.

I asked him the reason why everyone was staring at me when I came to play but he did not answer. I kept insisting and he pointed at my breasts saying these are looking much bigger and it was not possible for anyone to ignore.

Hardeep said today he himself could not stop staring at my chest because it was looking much more beautiful than before. I argued that every girl or woman has breasts so why was I being singled out.

He said that my breasts were unusually large. He said I was too young to understand some things and as I grow up I will find out what all this means and why do men stare at my chest.

Knowing well that I was not going to get much answers from him, I changed the topic. I excitedly told him that mom had bought me new bras today of my correct size and I was wearing one right now.

He said he wanted to see it. I was surprised he asked me so directly but I was also very excited to show my new underwear to him. I too wanted to talk to him about everything that happened with the doctor because Hardeep was my only best friend with whom I could discuss anything.

Today many people had told me I would figure things out once I grew up, so I decided to barter with him to get answers in return for granting his wishes. I went with him to his house after informing my mother.